Wednesday 16 October 2013

随性的一章

大学生涯第七个星期了
我想我还算过得很不错
虽然免不了为了和妈妈撒娇而拼命说食物糟糕
但是在这里吃进肚里的好料也不少xD
在表姐朋友,JiaMee的带领下
去了最不可少的GayaStreet, Philipino Market, Suria & Centre Point, 还有那个剑鱼地标
终于捞了一堆土产要带回家炫耀

这里的生活真得很不错了
我常说,如果不用考试,那简直是完美haha

七个星期就这样度过了
从一开始的不习惯
到现在的习以为常
人类的适应能力真的是强大
有一群朋友的支持
是我在这里的动力

再过三个星期就是假期了
很期待家里的枕头和被
但是我还是会往外头跑的
我要驾车!!

接下来还有期中考
我想我准备读到疯掉
可是为了回家,我会撑着的!

大家,我们快准备见面吧!xD

两个傻子

16.10.2013 凌晨
又到了我人生的另一个check point
有个傻瓜告白了

我也有今天
除了傻笑还是傻笑
我可真的不知道要做什么样的反应阿
只好祝福我们啦
两个呆子
大家要加油
更多的话
等见面的时候再说吧
最想要说的是
谢谢你

我们加油

My First Page in UMS Sabah


20.09.2013
This is one of the most significant month in my life.
The month when I finally enter my Uni Life.
I was registered as an official undergraduate of University Malaysia Sabah on 2nd September 2013.
Studying Food Technology and Bioprocess which wasn’t my first choice but also one of my option when applying IPTA.
I stay in Kampung E Blok A-1-12-3
With a Sabah malay, Hidayu
First week was MSM (a.k.a. Minggu Suai Mesra)
This was quite an interesting programme for me as this acted as a buffer for me to adapt myself to a new life here
Three main meals, tea break, and supper were provided throughout this whole week
Foods were always more than enough, so we just took as much as possible xD
Mineral water is very important! xD

4.9.2013 (Wednesday) was upacara sumpah, which officially announced us as an undergraduate of UMS
We were all requested to wear white formal shirt and bring along the green scarf provided on the day of registration
These two colour matched nicely!
Start from left to right : Me, Ling Ching, Ming Shiuan, Ho Jin, Yi Wei, Johanna

5.9.2013 (Thursday) was the day for our activity according to School. Visited my school, Sekolah Sains Makanan dan Pemakanan (also known as SSMP). I was really excited when I saw so many machines and mini factory in SSMP! That was the moment when I felt so grateful for getting this course xD
Ling Ching and I stayed at cafeteria on this night to decide which subject to register for on the next day. We were lucky enough to meet few nice people. Seniors approached us to offer their help and coincidently, they are our seniors in SSMP! And also thanks to a guy who offered his laptop for us to check the timetable for our courses (fyi, this guy is Ken Ooi and YiWei, LingChing, MingShiuan keep saying he looks alike with JiaHuei xD)

6.9.2013 (Friday) was the day for registration of subjects. We woke up late and reached the location around 8am (registration started at 8.30pm) It was really a long queue which almost drove me to crazy. So, as a reminder to new students, you are suggested to queue by 5am unless you don’t mind to get some weird subjects xD
I was quite lucky as I managed to register for the subjects which I aimed for though I was quite late for registration. (or mayb my choices were too weird that actually many people won’t choose? Lol)

7.9.2013 (Saturday) was a free day for us as UMS didn’t plan any activities for us. So six of us (Ling Ching, Yi Wei, Ming Shiuan, Ho Jin, Johanna and I) had a tour in UMS to familiarize us with the location of our schools and lecture halls. The seniors we met on Thursday night fetch us to have dinner at kk town and to buy some necessities. Thanks so much to them J
Our Chancellor Hall, Our Proud. J 
(From left to right: me, yiwei, mingshiuan, lingching, hojin, johanna)

8.9.2013 (Sunday) I visited Basel Church in Kingfishers. We got our free lunch at Beaufort Restaurant by Father of the church. The foods were tasty!
Beaufort Restaurant at Kingfishers, I miss their pork chop!

After lunch, we went to 1Borneo (our first visit). Thanks to seniors from church for giving us a free fetch and showed us how to take bus back to UMS J
Received a cute news from mum today, my grandpa missed me and he cried. I never saw him cried before. He really missed me and I missed him too. But grandpa, just wait for me, I’ll back in November! xD

I had my first lecture on 9.9.2013 (Monday). Woke up early and queued up for bus at 6.30am. Everything was safexD But I really can’t understand what my lecturer taught Lol Nevermind this was normal for first few lectures I understood xD
The benefit of study in UMS is, 1Borneo is just nearby and you only need to pay 50cents to take a bus (TUT bus) or you may get to hop in UMS bus to Usia for free. Lots of shops can be found there. Starbucks, Harris, Dunkin Donuts, Padini, Brands Outlet, F.O.S., McD, KFC, Daiso and ect. But never forget the consequence, you will spend lot and getting poor day by day if you make 1Borneo as ur 2nd homexD
Visited Pulau Manukan and Pulau Sapi on 16.9.2013 under guidance of seniors from church. These two islands were really clean and almost free from pollution.


These photos tell you how clean the water is!



I will definitely visit these islands for second, third and forth time!

Okay, I also want to confess something here. I did some ‘classic stupid things’ which some newbies will commit. My friends and I went into a wrong lecture hall. We entered the room and suddenly realised we don’t recognise the faces in that room. And a person went to the stage giving some briefing before lecturers reached. When he mentioned the name of the school for that room, we just felt so funny as we actually did a stupid thing together! Your life will be better with friend along even when you are doing a stupid action xD And on one of the day passed, I took the wrong bus for twice  within a day. My friend and I hopped into a UMS bus travelling in a wrong direction which brought us to the final station instead of returning to Kampung E. Then we hopped into another bus immediately as we thought the bus would bring us back to Kg E. But unfortunately the bus was actually for Usia, meaning we will be brought to 1Borneo outside UMS. We just couldn’t stop laughing when we reached 1 Borneo xD Hillarious indeed!

So these are what happened to me within 3weeks in UMS Sabah. The life can be tough at places outside from home. But still need to move on. I am lucky as I still accompanied by friends. Just to be thankful, determined and try to accept more thing with different perceptions.

Be strong be kind be fair, be smart be fun be thankful. 

Thursday 3 October 2013

Farewell


I miss you all, miss you all deadly
Finally all of us entered University.
As the last person to leave hometown, I decided to have some farewell sessions for my friends.
The first batch of people I sent were Yi Hui, Lee Kang, Ting Wei and Teng Wee.
They were heading to Penang on 30.8.2013 night by bus.
The person I can’t bear to leave the most was Yi Hui.
This little cute girl always being so nice to me and we went through a lot of up and down in SDBL.
But we still have to move on, isn’t? Our friendship can withstand this, I believe.
And one discovery of the day was, my mum and Ting Wei’s mum are cousin! They didn’t see each other for more than 10years and finally they met each other when their children met up for farewell sessionXD


(From left to right : Teng Wee, Ting Wei, Lee Kang, Yi Hui)

I was suppose to farewell with Qi Hau and Wen Hui who left BP on the next day but I was late for some personal reason. It was really a sad case xD

And on 1.9.2013, the night before I went Kota Kinabalu, my last farewell session. Jia Huei leaving BP to UUM on this night. Met Yeh Shan at bus station as she was going to UUM too. Cute girl she said she felt want to cry when she saw me haha. Must take care in UUM ya J

I will definitely miss them all but I know we will meet each other again. Our friendship will never fade J They are part of the best thing in my life. Thousands of words are not enough to describe. You will understand this when you go through all the things that happened between me and them.
I cherish the bonds with all of them and glad to meet them in my high school. Fate brought us together. Thanks to fate, thanks to you all’s understanding.
And, good luck in our Uni Life, welcome to Uni Life.

Thursday 8 August 2013

Understanding

Yeap, just need some understanding
Just like how people accept you
Even they don't ask for anything from you
shouldn't you just being a little bit tolerant to them?
Just let you be
Explanation is not necessary
People will accept you if they trust you
If they don't,
any explanation will be a joke for them
So what's the point?

I believe in science,
but I also believe in fate

If the thing is going to end now
I'll just accept it
and let it be ended
And
Thanks for your time spent on me during the past
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for all I still having now.

Tuesday 6 August 2013

小罚单

同一句话
在我的眼里
感觉是好友间打闹的话
结果在别人看起来
居然觉得很严重

老实说
原本我也只是觉得
我的姐妹很可爱
写的东西就是我们平时爱酸彼此的词语

可是
他们看到了
反应还挺大的
是我迟钝么?

希望真的只是想我感觉到的那样就好了
我相信你 :)
希望你也相信我

当然还是有必要解释一下
就是
这绝对不是最后通知
因为这是临时决定的

只是我有一点小糊涂的忘了你没有在上网
讯息发错地方
这是我欠揍没错xD

Saturday 3 August 2013

自我激励

快去沙巴了
最后一个月
大家就分开了
这个月是大家大学前的最后一个月
好多好多的事想做
时间能不能别过得那么快
十多年前盼望着进大学
如今却希望能慢些
好矛盾
好多的计划
好多的误会
好多的未知
还有好多的不舍
好多的放不下

要告诉自己
加快脚步
要跑得比时间快
不然好多的好多都会变成遗憾

激励自己
启发自己

加油!

Tuesday 16 July 2013

我的大学梦

小时候的我曾多次和妈妈发誓
我一定要进大学
当时妈妈笑了笑
似乎觉得这有点不可思议
她家的小嫩芽竟然会有大学梦

十多年后
这一天终于到来了
等了这么多年
就是为了这一天
IPTA放榜的日子
我完成小时候的心愿的日子

和宁静一样得到了UMS的课程
也还好,其实还可以接受去沙巴读书的
而且还有了伴
只是当我看到课程的名字时
我慌了
food technology & bioprocess-HY07
没记错的话,这是我的7th choice
我的警队梦直接破碎
剩下的只是无助
那一瞬间很失望
突然觉得自己这二十年来等的到底是什么
最后得到的不是我想要的
而且有点在我意料之外

之后又得到消息
鸿川也拿不到他的兽医系
Emo
连他的成绩都不能如愿

看到facebook很多人开开心心的分享自己的学校
自己也不好意思写些扫兴的东西博人关心
之后可以在chatbox里画圈圈
哈 这就是我在等的?

之后马上联络了以前的学姐
据说她是同一所大学的
她知道了很高兴
也从她那里听来了一些有关这个课程的资讯
其实也不是和原本要的课系无关
还是有一些我喜欢的课程
虽然会失望
但是至少还不算是绝望

隔天回了学校一趟
之后鸿川致电马青
他们说无法受理
因为那时我们自己选的
也对
当初就必须有这种心理准备

睡了个小觉
醒来后终于接受了事实
我决定去沙巴

既然如此
那也就不犹豫了
马上告诉几位比较亲近的朋友我的决定
然后开始规划未来的生活

很巧的
马六甲阿姨也在这天打给我
她听了小姨说我的情况后
鼓励我去沙巴读
很好,有了她的支持我更加不害怕了
听她说着那些话
不知怎么的我竟然哭了
也许是她说中了我最害怕的事
有也许是她说出了我最想听见的话
但我可以肯定的是
她的这通电话稳定了我的决定
在这里向她说谢谢
(然后因为我是在工作中接听她的电话,所以启豪看到我接电话的反应之后似乎有被我吓到,可是因为当时刚哭完所以没有理会他的询问,哈,在这里抱歉咯)

以前的学姐
现在已经是我的直系学姐
以后多多麻烦她了 哈哈
表姐也把她的好朋友介绍给我
说真的
我还算是有贵人相助
那,应该会没事吧
相信自己

以溦宁静也同校
我说我们的缘分实在是不浅
你们两个就准备被我烦死吧, 哈
这次有好多人陪行
乐薇,慧仪,ming shiuan,时群,shin huey, peishan
好多好多认识的人
彼此也有个照应
这会是一群sdbl少女的大学探险之旅

和其他朋友相比
我也许不是最幸运的
如果拿学校和课程来比较的话
但是我觉得我很走运
因为我有好多人陪伴
又得麻烦大家关照我接下来的几年了
哈哈

学校是很远
幸亏有飞机这伟大的发明
所以行程上只有不到三个小时的距离
只是机票实在是贵啊
来回得准备至少rm400才够
所以带去的东西绝对不能漏
不然真的是呜呼哀哉了

短短的两三天内
从一开始的茫然失望
到现在的准备就绪
我想
我又度过了人生的另一个up and down了吧

也因为这个重大的决定
突然让我充满动力
因为我知道
我剩下的机会不多了
所有之前的计划要赶快推动
因为
大家在一起的日子所剩无几了

就这样
我人生中的一件大事算是发生了
我也活过来了
接下来的
就是准备好一切
开始另一段旅程
长达四年
在马来西亚的另一端
非一般不一样的旅程

我知道刚开始的我会很沮丧
我也会想家
我还会突然不知所措的害怕
我会哭得很惨又不敢被人看见
我也有可能会在那里摔一跤(或更多)
但是
我知道
我要咬牙撑过
我要勇敢
我要变得更好
让所有担心我、关心我的人感动
让我自己的人生有价值
让他们放心、不再为我担心
我会成长
我会更独立
这四年的泪水和汗水
要把小草变成大树
这样我才可以保护那些保护过我的人

王雪儿的四年沙巴大学之旅
我家小草的成长之旅
王雪儿,你要撑下去!

Friday 5 July 2013

六月过了

好的,我这次又差点忘了来这里报到
六月过得怎样呢
我得好好回忆一下

首先,终于向manager正式表明做到几时了
总算可以放心去计划我的事了
鸿川这个月开始变闲人,好羡慕

六月的前两个星期没休假
首先是因为aidil这个月刚开始学柜台的东西
所以实在不放心让他一个人晚上守着柜台
怪可怜的家伙
可是他算是最让我们放心的人了
整个月下来,他做得还算不错(LIKE!)
接着是mas要去旅行所以请假
人手不足的情况下只好牺牲小我了
以后她连拿病假可能都很难
所以让她好好地去玩一次吧

然后11 June终于休息了
下午载妹妹去BP Mall之后去了玩具店探望志扬
很感慨大家以后连见面都很难了吧
之后原本计划要去跑一跑消脂
结果还是败给了家里的粽子
傍晚和老母,鸿川,立康逛了Soga夜市
很怪异的组合哈哈
我常说我妈妈很非一般啊
晚上和XTong逛Aeon Big, Sq1
好久没有这么逛了
毕业后大家果然更难出门了
之后驾了车上banang找传说中的Barista Inn
结果扑了个空
哈我们太突然决定去那里连地址都没有啊
无奈地转去没有去过的Kitchen21
好在这地方没让我们失望
XTong吃到满意的意大利面
家辉点了所谓的"新鲜果汁" LOL

16June又休息了(话说这几天烟雾超严重的)
业鸿小弟的生日啊
下午和宁静去了Gym
我说我的Cardio退步得很厉害啊
发誓去读书之前要练回来!
咱俩玩拉筋玩得不亦乐乎,怪咖
之后回家冲个凉就和好久不见的以溦出门
去了Papazi大野人
竟然看到了很棒的壁画
也就是她之前搞主体派对用的图
迟来的家辉被耍
傻傻地以为以溦的车子在同学家然后走路到大野人 (我说他也太好骗了吧)
之后当了外卖小妹送晚餐回家
偷喝了鸿川从peserai弄来的coconutmilk shake
人间美味啊
然后又去了Kitchen21
没错,这地方我一个星期内去了两回!
和依慧宇轩家辉以溦的阵容还是头一回
拿到了我的新水瓶,鲜艳的橙色!
还有以溦从马六甲买回来的土产,感恩
就这样,我的休息日结束了

19 June婆婆对年,死命拗要在这天把我之前的休息日补回来
好久不见的姑姑叔叔
可爱的王琳小堂妹
大伯一家没出席
唉 无奈的一家
这算是给我学习的前车之鉴么?
还是小孩子最无邪
烟雾的日子大家连拜拜都很辛苦
仿若仙境啊LOL
晚上和依慧宁静去石乐
原本还有以溦的科室烟雾搞得她不舒服只好在家休息
石乐过后很不要脸的去和第一班的几个臭男人&佳颐喝茶
和文辉像白痴那样恶整SygicGPS
可是这玩意儿真的很棒哈哈
和大伙儿讨论了一些事儿
还看到了所谓的月光河

22June又是我休息
中午和宁静鸿川去大采购
买了做cheesecake & cheese stick的材料
也买了一些不相干的食物哈哈
其实homemade cheese cake真的很容易做
虽然我们的太湿了
下次会进步的
哈哈
晚上见识了玩家怎么网上打Dota
还去了peserai吃黑胡椒汉堡
之后去麦当劳吃了圣代

23June晚上和凤玉家辉吃烤肉
没错,就是这对表兄妹
之后和家辉宇轩XTong看了MonsterUniversity
很棒的电影
单眼可爱的小家伙教会我不少道理

30June终于打羽毛球了
下午和黄佳颐鸿川宁静去随意诗人
讨论了八月的大计划
之后还去‘我的眼镜’找文辉闹场
配了新的眼镜
黄佳颐文辉和鸿川帮我看的眼镜
这次一定要可以用久久啊
晚上宁静洗礼
和鸿川去当她的摄影师
XperiaZ&Iphone5 相机哈哈哈哈
还比较谁的相机厉害
很不正经的两个王八
恭喜宁静正式洗礼
恩典教会的洗礼仪式简单又不失庄严
六月的最后一点还没结束
仪式过后去了文辉家
这家伙把我家的车当玩具开,去把黄佳颐绑架出来
然后我们很随行的去McD DriveThru
打包了过后我们三个加上家辉XTong浩浩荡荡的上Minyak beku吃宵夜
不要问我我们去到的是那个地区
我只知道那里很靠近海
因为我是第一次知道有这种地方 囧
我说,偶尔就是该这样疯狂一点地度过

我的六月结束了
再过几天就是大学放榜的日子了
祝福我们吧
还有我接下来的几个大计划 XD

*有一些奇怪的感觉,希望不是我自我感觉良好,我想来点不一样的了!xD

Wednesday 12 June 2013

我的五月

五月我干了什么呢?
首先这里举行了热闹非凡的大选(这么形容应该没错吧)
五月五晚上还真是紧张刺激
到处传言会有暴乱搞的人心惶惶
和立康鸿川跑去了佳颐家要连线dota结果还是被威胁着回家 囧
结果就不必多说了@@

再来呢便是新玩具--网球拍
终于买了梦寐以求的网球拍
是红白色的wilson
实在是青春!
只是球艺不精,还得冷静多练练啊 (汗)

然后呢usm 面试的科系全部泡汤,好吧还有别的机会我等着
喔我还得到了一个超级无敌棒的礼物,谢谢小叔 😄
很幸运的有机会去um面试(也是忙里偷闲的机会,嘘)
和依慧立康宇轩到吉隆坡两日游
谢谢依慧的堂哥当我们的小导游
还有燕婷分享的shuttle bus服务哈哈
Zen mai sushi是很不错的玩意儿
可惜的是才刚到不久就发烧了,结果有点破坏大家的兴致
第一天晚上还用立康fb帐号恶整了他的朋友 XD
我说科技是很伟大又重要的发明
住的地方嘛
Bodhi lodge很不错,可是我忘了拍照啊哈
大学嘛,简直是了不起
为了一个医学院我可是徒步走了将近半小时啊 (感谢依慧陪我找到为止,不然我一个人真的是会害怕)
至少十一栋建筑物的医学院,果然不是盖的
好的,我又很傻的忘了拍照,这次白走那么远的路了
面试结果怎么样就拭目以待吧,虽然我很过分地说了那句会气到教授的决定哈哈
只去了几个地方,大部分时间是在mid valley, the garden 度过的
可是我真的很喜欢这种感觉
很没有计划的在一个地方兜兜转
很自由的感觉
我又活回来了XD
我应该是被宠坏了,自由习惯了啊 😁

Wednesday 24 April 2013

1day Trip to Malacca-21042013

Having lotsss of stress in my job and my mind told me : Hey, it's time to have a break!
With no hesitation, I decided to visit Malacca, the place which is nearer and I really love this place all the timeXD
So, I asked those available ladies around me to join this sudden plan =p
Time: 8.15am
Date: 21st April 2013 (Sunday)
Transport: Orchid Bus
Participants: Ling Ching, Hui Xian, Yi Wei and I
Had our breakfast at Perdana before we start the journey.
The first surprise we got was-- Meeting Celine Tan on the same bus!!
The moment I entered the bus, I heard someone shouting beside me, that's Celine!
So surprised to meet her after so many monthsXD
Her destination was Muar, so she only joined us until Muar and left the bus.
We reached Malacca Central at about 10.15am, then we took Panorama to the Red House near Jonker Street.
So excited to take photo at the fountain there. :) Dang!!
Thanks to the tourists there who were so nice as they stopped beside our camera and waited until we had done capturingXD
And we discovered another location which was consider nice for taking photo! Here!
Windmill in front of the fountain! Holiday moodXD
Taken by a Hong Kong tourist.
And we did some funny things in Malacca, one of those was this:
We were pushing against the wall?! Haha just a trick did by adjusting camera at correct orientationXD
I really love this, thumbs up!
Our first and the most important place to go was Jalan Hang Kasturi, where the artistic cafe--Calanthe Cafe located XD (Ling Ching was the person who found this from a website)
We were cute enough as none of us knew where the cafe is, but we were so keen in visiting this ranking no. 4 cafe in Malacca XD
Thanks to an uncle who told us on how to go Jalan Kasturi. (Just somewhere nearby Jonker Street!)



 An unique cafe =)
 Lots quotes can be found in this cafe! I love this the most!
 Nice drawing, people said most of the drawing were drew by different artists.
 If you love coffee as well as tea, you should try this- Green Tea coffee. I love the aroma.



You could find this kind of drawing anywhere in Calanthe Cafe.
Nah another nice place for you if you love to take photo XD
I wondered how long they took to complete this XD
We had also tried their home made apple cheesecake and ice cream brownie, I would say yes to these two desserts the next time I visit this cafe. So niceeeee with a reasonable price.
You will be surprised if you knew we spent almost 2hours in this cafe, but I would say, this worth it =D
Strongly recommend Calanthe Cafe to you!
On the way moving to bus stop, we took a photo with the convex mirror XD I love this too!
Oh ya, we even dropped by a stall at roadside(Jonker Street) and bought lots of small gifts.
Actually we bought a lot of these cute little things but too bad we had no time to take photo, so I only manage to get this photo from Ling Ching thereXD (this is for our bio group, starting from left: Hong Chuan, Hui Xian, Me, Ling Ching and our blurry leader Li Nyin)

(Girls, I really love every outing with you all)
This trip was indeed short, but I enjoyed this very much.
A nice outing with suitable partners made this trip no regret!
And I enjoy the feeling, at a place where nobody knows you, you are not so familiar with the streets, but you can be so brave to ask anyone to point the direction for you.
I never give up my travel plan. =)
I never give up my freedom. =)

Sharon Heng! Go Go Go!
 (The another cute girl was Hui Xian, she always did funny things with meXD)
Glad I have a gang of friends who always give me lots power to move on.
Thanks and be grateful.
Malacca, UNESCO- Unique, Nicety, Eternity, Supreme, Cool, Open-eyed!

Sunday 24 March 2013

Angels

They are angels in my life
I know I m a  lucky girl
I m not that perfect but I know what I met was perfect enough to a person like me
They made me change
It's not they changed me, but they gave me the courage to change myself
I think this is the better Me
I learnt to be a caring person
as they care for each other every time
I got to speak my own opinion bravely
as they are open enough to accept people's criticism
I have become a person who dare to think, speak, laugh and cry
becoming more confident in myself
As they always support each other and trust in each other
This will be quite a perfect friendship to me
I know I am lucky
'cause I meet them =)

18th March

I got my STPM result today!
the outcome was extremely good and satisfactory to me
as i dont really feel that i deserved this result
A for Pengajian Am, A- for Mathematics n Biology, and B+ for my Chemistry!
I couldn't imagine I could score an A- in Biology!
Thanks to my dear friends who kept helping me in revision before exam!
And congrats to the two little boys Hong Chuan and Lee Kang, scored 4.0 in STPM!
Marvelous! Bravo!
Proud of me LoL
They deserved this!
All the best to everyone!
Yeap, and now it's time for everyone including me to decide what to do in our future
Plan to try for every chance as this may be the last chance to try too
But I have no idea at all @@
Bless me please =)
Dad, grandpa n grandma, I hope and believe that I did not disappoint you all
Thanks to you all's love and blessings!
How I wish you all were here.
But I will learn to be stronger, believe in me ya =)
And lastly, all the best in everyone's future!
Go for a brighter future!

Friday 15 March 2013

Brief record on what happened to me recently

Uhmmm, this is the very first blog presented in english
Am gonna to record & share what happened to me recently
Firstly, I had completed my MUET on 9th March (Sat) in TIGS!
This's such a good news since i am finally in my holiday mood!
[cheers!]

And secondly, I had finally met up with dearly Ling Ching & Hui Xian on 10th March (Sun)!
Met Ling Ching for lunch at McD and after that we visited Hui Xian at Carrefour (she was working as promoter for colgate toothbrush)
Coincidentally, Yi Herng was her colleague!
Another long-time-no-see friend again!
I would like to say, I miss all my classmates in form6!
And, on the same day, but at night after Hui Xian knocked off & after Ling Ching serviced at church, we met up again at Secret Recipe!
We were actually going for their promotion of RM1 for a piece of cake, but too bad these two muddle heads gave wrong info, their promotion only started on the next day(11th March) ! LoL
However, it was nice to have them around.
Caring and never abandoned anyone of us. I love them!

Well, here comes the third incident that i wanted to record here.
As a contrast with the previous two incidents, this is an unhappy incident.
Happened on 12th March (Tuesday), I cried for a whole night.
A customer at my working place did something which is actually quite normal, but too bad he did it at a wrong place. The area was so small and so my colleague and I concluded that was a dangerous action.
I discussed with Mas, and she shared the same opinion with me, that is to stop everyone from doing the same practice to ensure the safety of everyone (and also to be fair to everyone).
Too bad, she had knocked off so she was not the suitable person to talk with that particular customer.
While for Mumu, she was unaware of that incident so she shall not be the one to talk to that guy too.
ChaYee was busying checking our accounts record.
Aidil was sleeping as that was his break time.
Cheek Hau had knocked off too.
So i decided to do it on my own.
I went to that customer and tried to talk nicely with him. However, he tried to pull me away from our topic and he found lots excuses for himself.
In the end, he even tried to 'exchange' benefits from me, and i really felt like I was threatened. (WTF?!)
Although I ended the talk by advising him to be careful in a polite tone, I broke down after I went to my counter because I was really disappointed and angry! That moment I thought of giving up everything, resigning my job and hiding at home away from this nonsense world.
Totally disappointed by this world.
However, I really felt thankful for Mumu as she went out when the incident happened, but she comforted me when she came back. Her soft tone was really a great encouragement for me. So glad she was there even after the thing ended. And Cheek Hau actually did come to me trying to know what had happened, but too bad I wasn't in the mood to talk with anyone.
I cried for 1hour immediately after the incident, and continued after our shop had closed. After we closed the shop, I even cried in the car uncontrollably until ChaYee msg+phoned me to either go home or McD (she stayed in her car watching me crying like ghost and I actually knew, she was worrying for me). We went McD as I really did not want to let my mum saw me in such a desperate condition. I did not know how to tell ChaYee what's the problem. And so, I kept sobbing while drinking large coke. Thanks to her patience for sitting there being so awkward with me talking nothing for almost 1hour.

These are the major incidents happened to me recently. I swear I will grow up a little by little. One day I will be strong enough to break them down! And I pray for those who cares for me sincerely, they are the essential nutrients for my growth. Thanks God I have them!

Thursday 7 March 2013

一则故事

無意中發現了這個,很有共鳴
(以下轉載網路文章)

一個苦者找到一個和尚傾訴她的心事。
她說:“我放不下一些事,放不下一些人。”
和尚說:“沒有什麼東西是放不下的。”
她說:“這些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚讓她拿著一個茶杯,然後就往裡面倒熱水,一直倒到水溢出來。
苦者被燙到馬上鬆開了手。
和尚說:“這個世界上沒有什麼事是放不下的,痛了,妳自然就會放下。”

妳可能覺得難過
因為無論妳對他怎麼好他都不領情
他不是看不到
他只是裝作看不到
或者他根本不想看到
妳覺得自己很喜歡他
甚至覺得再沒有一個人可以像妳那麼喜歡他
妳用盡全力對他好
把他看的比自己還重要
有什麼事情第一個就想到他
聯繫不到他的時候妳擔心他擔心地快瘋了

然而妳有沒有想過.....
這並不在妳的責任範圍
而且很有可能他是在躲著妳
他受不了你對他那麼好
不要一直發短信給他
不要一直找他
妳也許只是想找他說說話
妳覺得那很正常不算苛求
但是也許他並不這麼想

記住
妳的想法不代表他的想法
妳是真的不求回報的在喜歡他嗎
妳捫心自問一下
妳確定不用他回報什麼嗎
那為什麼妳會難過
若是真的一無所求
妳又怎麼會覺得難過呢
所以別覺得妳那麼愛他是偉大的
也許他根本不在乎妳怎麼為他付出
有時候妳給他的愛或許是種負擔
這種負擔只會讓他更加想遠離你
因為他不想虧欠妳
別事事為他擔心為他張羅
妳覺得他沒有妳不行
妳覺得別人做不到妳那麼完善
但是妳要清楚
你不是他要的那個人
你做的再完善也敵不過人家不做
自然會有人為他擔心為他著急
不用你來費心

那個位置本來就不是你的
你何必硬要擠上去呢
也許曾經你們是相愛過的
但是請記住
那是曾經
過去的就是過去了
如果大家真的適合在一起
那麼當初就不會分開
無論是誰提的分手都一樣
這段感情曾經就是存在破裂點的
不管是誰錯結果都是一個
你們分開了

分開以後
如果一方試圖想挽回而另一方沒有同意的話
那麼這段感情就是過去了
他是理智的因為他已經明白了兩個人不適合
而你還一遍一遍地告訴自己
你們當初如何如何相愛
不可能那麼容易就分手的
這樣只會讓你更加難以放棄
卻不會讓對方再次回頭選擇妳
除非大家都有意要和好

否則你一個巴掌是不可能拍響的
所以儘早打消這個念頭吧
至於他是不是有意
我想你自己心裡比誰都明白
不要覺得自己有多可憐或者把自己弄得很可憐
這樣做一點意思也沒有
他不會因為妳可憐而喜歡妳

妳說道理妳都懂只是妳做不好
不是妳做不好是妳不想做
妳不是怕忘記他
你是怕他忘了妳吧
別說什麼他離不開妳的
其實分明就是妳離不開他
他若是離不開妳
他就不會不要妳
整天死死巴著人家不放的人是妳
不懂事的人是妳
難道妳沒看出來嗎
喜歡他不是妳的錯
想關心他不是妳的錯
控制不住自己不是妳的錯
但是那是妳的方式

傻孩子.
忘了吧.所有妳留戀的.妳回憶的.妳擁有過的.
那些.都已是記憶.
缺失並不可怕.
可怕的.是無法面對.

傻孩子.
勇敢看著鏡子中的自己吧.
這個悲傷軟弱滿面憔悴的自己.
這也是妳.成長中的妳.
這個妳.正在逐漸死去.
新的妳.即將重生.
找尋妳的路.妳的未來.
妳知道的.所有的浩劫.都是成長的祭奠.
做最好的自己.即使.一個人.

傻孩子.
妳無法輕易忘記放棄.是因為妳付出過.
付出了.他就會像柱子一樣紮根在心.
不要刻意去逃避.刻意忘記.那只會讓妳更痛苦.
繞開這個柱子.尋找未來的幸福生活吧.
那裡.有妳的理想.

傻孩子.
開始新的習慣吧.
習慣.早上不再有人工鬧鈴.
習慣.每天一個人生活.
習慣.一個人過生日.一個人行走.
妳逃不掉.逃不掉的.
那麼.就勇敢面對.現實.
現實是.他已離開.一切.畫上了句點.

傻孩子.
好.好.盡情發洩吧.
剝開自己的心.用文字.用聲音.用所有能發洩的方式.
洩完了.就要振作.
看吧.妳失去的.其實微不足道.
還有那麼多人關心著妳.以不同的方式.
所以.妳並不孤獨.
正是這樣的失去.讓妳看清現在所擁有的幸福.

傻孩子.
別哭.別再哭.
不值得.真的.不值得了.
把過去塵封吧.別委屈.別不甘心.別不接受.
開始新的旅程吧.去遇見新的風景.新的際遇.
做妳該做的事吧.有很多事.等待著妳完成呢.

傻孩子.
所有的人都對妳有信心.
所以.妳也要充滿信心.
妳是堅強的.積極的.樂觀的.灑脫的.
以前是.以後也會是.
總有一天.那個活力無窮傻氣無盡的女金剛會復活.

傻孩子.
生活褪去了曾有的顏色.暫時寧靜.
別沉淪在這片寧靜裡.那會毀掉妳.
妳要明白.雖然殘忍.但這個決定.足夠正確.
現在的生活.不是妳想要的.
為了妳的理想.你必須學會適時放棄.
給對方最好的關懷.就是.變的更好.更強大.更幸福.

現在妳對他很好、很好、很好,
他不需要、他無所謂、他不在乎,他不珍惜
當某天,他被傷害,想起妳。
那時的妳再也做不到像現在這樣一如既往、不顧一切地對他好了

因為那時的妳,已經將他放低
原來,放低一個人,最後是被對方逼出來的
其實這個世界,真的沒有非要誰不可,
走自己的路,別回頭。

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很有意思的故事

让人反思

Wednesday 27 February 2013

給你,雖然我不覺得你會看到

朋友一場
還是希望你會幸福
畢竟你這一路走來也跌倒過
找得到對的那位的話
當然會替你感到欣慰
只希望你不要誤會什麼
也許是我過敏
但我還是隱約的擔心你會想太多
放心
我還是在堅持我自己的計劃
王雪兒是堅持得莫名其妙的
我自己什麼都沒準備好呢
祝福我再多兩年內也得到我想要的吧
就算沒有
我也不會太失望啦
畢竟我還有很多夢要去追
少了一個也無妨
但是你一定要好好的
如果他哪裡不對
被我知道了
我不會放過他
讓他知道
他傷不起
所以,你要加油!
但是拜託多關心可憐孤單的我
畢竟我只剩下你們了  
emo LOL

Thursday 14 February 2013

無題

世上沒有所謂的看得見背後的自己那麼一回事
我終於明白
沒有人明白嘴上說的和心裡想的有多不一樣
我也只能和天國的他說實話
人,終究還是人
多希望我只是迷路到地球的外星人
爸爸快把我接回去吧
短短的一個月
我的世界價值觀全崩塌了
我該怎麼辦?
很想念寧靜的擁抱
可以讓我抱著大哭一場的擁抱
哭過,就好了

Saturday 9 February 2013

07/02 三度捐血記

過年前三天的星期四
再度捐血了
體重 48kg
血壓 96/63
血濃第一次12.1第二次 13.1
成功過關!
這次大家都聰明了,
讓最慢的立康先捐,
結果他挨了兩針折騰好久也才捐250ml 囧
鴻川被檢查出血壓偏低少過四十,
結果沒得捐
氣得他拼命啃餅乾
感謝還有XT的手借我抓,
我的表情應該很古怪·XD
好的我會學會勇敢的
王雪兒,加油!

Wednesday 16 January 2013

讓我感觸

煩的時候沒人訴
我學會了忍受
哭的時候沒人哄
我學會了堅強
怕的時候沒人陪
我學會了勇敢
累的時候沒人靠
我學會了自立
這些,我明明都經歷了
為什麼我還是會哭?
生日就快到了
一點也不覺得期待
反而是滿滿的心酸
什麼都不敢講出口
就是怕得不到別人的理解
反而換來不屑的反應
我,真的很沒用

糟糕

實在糟糕
覺得這個月的自己實在糟糕
純粹指的是自己的行為與心態
也許有些放肆了我,真的很不好
還有老是覺得自己被討厭的感覺
應該是自己想太多吧?
我想是的
把自己搞得不開心
一直很壓抑
很想放聲大哭一場
明明自己常安慰別人
當自己真的很失落的時候為什麼卻不知道該找誰?
我到底怎麼了?!